If Only…

If only I had the courage, the will, the strength

To lay my thoughts to rest and pursue what I’ve been searching for

What I never thought I’d find

Not love

Not lust

But hope

Hope that our minds connect in such a way that no other woman and I have connected.

Hope that your story and mine don’t become parallel,

But intersect as we cross paths and laugh at life while it passes by

I hope that one day we can look each other in the eye

Realize that what we have is special

And the day we met must have been set to happen.

Whether friends or lovers,

I hope that we can be there for each other.

The spirit you possess entices my soul as the keys to yours unfold

We may come from different cloths but understand that with the right sew,

The outcome can be so beautiful.

Slow as the gentle breeze, but forward like the seven seas,

I want this connection to grow

If only.


Hip hop rapper LL Cool J said it best, “When I’m alone in my room, sometimes I stare at the wall; and in the back of my mind, I hear my conscience call.”

Maybe you should answer it.

Sometimes, we like to run away from our thoughts; to turn our backs to the dark side of our mind. Rumination follows you, but you run further. Like a nightmare, it won’t end until you face it. Pay attention to what your thoughts are telling you so that you can correct them. You wouldn’t go into a competitive debate with ear muffs, right?

Sometimes we use our lives to escape our thoughts. We either play like we’re too busy with responsibilities to stop and reflect, or we miss our chances for reflection because of constant distractions like our phones, games, social media, etc. These are all excuses to escape the looming negative thoughts in our heads. But wouldn’t it be better to operate without those ruminating thoughts?

There are many ways to improve your positive thinking, but either way, the first step is reflection. What do your thoughts say? What is really bothering you? Go deeper than the base foundation of your thoughts. Attempt to discover why these negative thoughts are here and how we can defeat them for good instead of finding a temporary fix. It is important to know the “enemy” before strategizing an attack.

Your thoughts are the only thing you truly have to yourself. Make sure they’re on your side. Take some time to escape the world and reflect on your thoughts, rather than escaping your thoughts and reflecting the world.